Saturday morning started like many others as I walked into my light therapy appointment. The ladies at the front desk, always a warm and cheerful bunch, stopped me. This wasn’t unusual—it’s a common occurrence—but typically, we chat on my way out, not on my way in. However, something about this morning was different.
They told me, as they often do, that I exude creativity and an energy that’s hard to ignore. It’s a humbling compliment that I never take for granted. They often say I inspire them to see the world with the same passion I bring to life. Most conversations at the desk keep me there for an extra 30-45 minutes past when my appointment is complete, but this morning, perhaps I was shining just a bit brighter when I walked in, as they stopped me as soon as I came in.
Midway through our animated conversation, as all my conversations are, another woman walked in, still looking half-asleep. She glanced at me and said, “You must’ve had some great coffee.”
The ladies chuckled knowingly, but I surprised everyone when I replied, “Oh, I don’t drink coffee. Caffeine would make me crawl the walls.” That sparked laughter all around. It was a lighthearted moment—a reminder of how our energy can fill a room in ways we don’t always realize. I headed in for my light therapy time, feeling uplifted by the shared smiles and connection.
On my way out, one of the ladies was still at the desk, giving me the perfect opportunity for some “Gigi and grandson” bragging time. She always asks when my daughter will bring him by to visit. Since she knows I won’t drive him in the convertible, my daughter would need to make the trip. Sharing stories about my grandson is always a joy. It’s in moments like these simple, meaningful connections—with the front desk ladies, the sleepy woman, and the world around me—that I’ve rediscovered my passion for people and for life.
That passion was reignited on my birthday trip in the summer of 2024. That’s when my life truly began to change, when I found myself for the first time in over 18 years.
First Solo Trip – A Trip of Self Discovery
The light I carried Saturday didn’t always burn so brightly. I’ve been to hell and back—practically homeless at times, on food stamps, facing trauma and challenges most people couldn’t imagine. I’ve endured pain that made survival feel impossible, from surgeries too numerous to count to heartbreaks that seemed insurmountable. But every trial shaped me into the person I am today.
Despite my struggles, I’ve never been too good to help those in need. I know what it feels like to lack, so I’ve devoted myself to giving back: feeding the homeless, housing abused children, and volunteering for various causes. From animal sanctuaries to Meals on Wheels, from mentoring young photographers to supporting children in need, I’ve tried to use my experiences to uplift others. I believe God kept me on this earth to help, to share love and knowledge, and to guide others through their own challenges.
I share my story not for sympathy, but as a testament to resilience. When I talk about my past, people often say, “I’m so sorry you went through that.” But for me, it’s not about sorrow or regret—it’s about transformation. The things I’ve faced do not define me; they’ve molded me into someone who loves without caution, without condition, and without fear.
I’ve learned to embrace my imperfections, to love myself fully, and to understand that I am enough. I’ve also learned NEVER to judge others. No one’s past defines their future. MISTAKES don’t determine WORTH. Just because a mistake was made ONCE—or even a MILLION times—doesn’t make someone less of a person. We all walk different paths and learn lessons at different times. Change comes when we’re ready, not when others demand it.
No one else knows your journey or your heart. The only person you owe accountability to is yourself. I’ve realized that those who judge or cast stones often have their own demons.
As the Bible reminds us:
“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” — Matthew 7:1-2
“Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone.” — John 8:7
“People who live in glass houses should not throw stones.”
This well-known proverb that advises against criticizing others when you are equally vulnerable to criticism or have faults of your own. The idea is that if your own house (life or character) is fragile or imperfect (like a glass house), you shouldn’t attack others, as your own flaws might be exposed or damaged in the process.
This sentiment aligns with the biblical teaching from John 8:7 where both emphasize the importance of self-reflection and humility before judging others.
These verses and proverb remind me to lead with love, compassion, and understanding—qualities the world so desperately needs, all while not casting judgement on others, no matter their past.
“There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?” — James 4:12
This verse reminds us that God is the only one with the authority to judge, as He alone knows the hearts and intentions of people. It encourages humility and leaving judgment in God’s hands rather than taking it upon ourselves.
Today, I live by a simple truth: love freely and without judgment. My past is a mosaic of struggles and triumphs, and it has equipped me to impact others in immeasurable ways. Whether through a smile, a kind word, or a shared laugh, I know the energy I bring matters—not just for others, but for me too.
If you ever find yourself in darkness, know this: you are not alone, and you are more than your circumstances. You are enough, and your light can shine again. Trust me—I’ve been there, and the view from the other side is worth it. Keep going, keep loving, and let your light shine.
Remember, you walk in your own shoes—no one else’s. Until the shoe fits and you’ve walked every step that person has, step back and let them live their life. Focus on your own path, keep your shoes on, and make sure you don’t get your own blisters. Life’s journey is tough enough without trying to walk in someone else’s shoes.
XOXO
-S
